Kayden, my mom, Mitchell, and tuesday

Because I use this blog as a kind of personal family history as well as a way to keep my relatives and friends posted, I want to have a special post about kayden, my mom, Mitchell, and Tuesday.

I have been really having a hard time going from one kid to two; mostly I am just really over tired. Kayden is a bit colicky. During the day if he is being held just so he is amazingly  good, most of the time, but put him down and he will cry like his heart is breaking (even now as I type he is on my lap). He does not go to sleep very well unless he is being held either I don’t know why. He gets worse throughout the day until by dinner I am worn to tears. I love being a mom I love being his mom, I just can’t keep up.  I dont like leaving the house messy and missing showers. I am not one of those people that can just let my baby scream without it really taking a toll on me, it makes me ache to hear my little onse cry for me and not go to them. I have a hard time in the late afternoon when Kayden cries more, But night time is the worst, at around ten he just has a hard hour, then he does the usual fall asleep and wake up and cry when I he is  put down thing which is fine except I hate to sleep with him because it is not really safe. It is getting much better but i am usually up and down with him until LATE when I finally get him to sleep it is usually in his swing. When he wakes up to eat at around three I mostly give in and end up putting him in bed with me. I do try to think positively and try to enjoy the time with just us. He has a very sweet spirit about him, and his smile is pure sunshine. I love my little kayden bug and his sounds. He cheers me up by making cute faces and just looking in my eyes.

Mostly being up and down all night and forgetting to drink enough water I end up feeling like I was hit by a car the next morning and have to do it all over again. I want to say here that Kayden is an angel he really is so sweet and cuddly he truly is a joy. I love to just sit and hold him, but I can’t always hold him because I have Eli and Mitchell and I have to eat. My mom has been coming by in the mornings a lot recently and I am so grateful. She always has a million other things to do but she makes the time to just come and give my boys a hug and help out for a few min so I can at least eat breakfast.  I don’t know if she knows how much of a help it is and how much I need help or if she just follows those good ideas we sometimes get, but I am so very grateful she does! She is also a great support she doesn’t chastise me or say much about it, but I know that I was a fussy baby too, and I hear stories of her holding me in one arm and making dinner in the other. 

Mitchell is amazing he is really sick right now and busy with work but he is always thinking of me and the boys and helping as much as he can. I am so incredibly blessed to have him as my Eternal companion; I can’t imagine what I would do without him in my life. I love him so dearly. He is a tremendous man and I am often amazed at how he much he sacrifices to care for our family. He cares for us not just physically but spiritually and emotionally, he always makes time so me and for kayden and Eli. I love Him!

Anyways  Tuesday. .  So Tuesday I  had to go visit teaching that morning and I was trying to get all the laundry done, and the kids feed, and treats made for my sisters I visit teach, and treat made for Mitchell’s home teaching families and get everyone ready and clean The tender mercy is that my Heaven Sent mother came over and watched my two boys for me while I got everything done, I was even able to shower an blow dry my hair! She held kayden and played with Eli and even picked up some toys around the living room. It  was so nice to have her to talk to while I got the treats made in the kitchen. She stayed until I had to go and she was probably hurried to get to work but what a blessing it was.

I was able to go visit teaching and focus on visiting with them instead of worrying because my hair was not combed. I had a great experience with my visiting teaching I love the sisters we visit! I was late because I walked though. So when we were running late for our second appointment we got a ride with my partner to the next house, because her kids weren’t there so she had empty car seats we could use. After visit teaching I realized my partner had my stroller in her car, but she had left before me. I couldn’t get ahold of her and so I had to walk home without a stroller for Eli. I had the baby bjorn for kayden still but I had to carry Eli with one arm and the diaper bag in the other. Pathetic to remember that I felt strong and capable when I worked out before I had kids. That walk was the real deal I kept thinking about the pioneer women(who had it way worse) and felt weak. I had another tender mercy which was that I was able to stop at Holly Barnes house to feed kayden half way home. She was so welcoming and she played with Eli and gave him a candy bar while I feed kayden. She even burped him and got spit upped on. It’s so great to have good friends!

That day we were able to go visit the other sister on my list and get to all of Mitchells home teaching families, we are so glad we are in the ward we are in. It was a day full of tender mercies.